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speak for yourself: 20th anniversary
a while ago a friend of mine got into imogen heap. i had previously listened to her when i was on my the oc (2003) grind, but i had kind of forgotten about that (music) phase of mine. so when he started learning about her, i dropped right back into her music with him.
ever since, i couldn't help but notice how very present her music is.
the many samples, especially in hiphop.
listening to speak for yourself and eclipse or her work in frou frou is always a great experience.
it's impressive how well it has aged, and how much it seems to inspire other artists.
personally, i think my favorite usage of her music is by mac miller on angels (when she shuts her eyes) (youtube).
it's incredible how the oc introduced me to her before i was ready to grasp how phenomenal her work is, and now all these years later i get to rediscover her through my friend's eyes. i only wish i had a better understanding of music as an art form to appreciate things like her production, ect.
seasonal depression??
[27.12.25]
i feel like i'm becoming mute. everyone seems to talk in a way that's just not relatable.
it takes me longer than usual to form cohesive sentences, and once they're out they don't even feel
cohesive at all. mostly, this phenomenon occurs when i am asked to talk about myself and my daily life.
currently, my life is changing a lot and there's a lot of uncertainty i'm reluctant to face, so
when someone asks me to tell them about any of that i flush, stutter and almost freeze.
i guess i wish there were more default things (like sayings) i could use to dodge these kind of talks,
but i come up blank again and again.
i always suffer in the darker months; i usually can't get up early, i can't fall asleep, i have a harder time being my usually very cheerful self, but this year it feels even worse. i feel so disconnected.
notes on
'notes on "camp"'
jutted down some quotes and thoughts on susan sontag's essay notes on "camp" (1964), which talks about camp as aesthetic sensibility.
"Indeed the essence of Camp is its love of the unnatural: of artifice and exaggeration." (p.1)>>> love of the unnatural love of the unnatural love of the unnatural
cool things on the internet
check out these things i found online.
dialko on youtube.
minecraft youtuber, who mostly plays beta minecraft or old versions of minecraft. very calming voice, and he has this very theoretic approach to thinking about minecraft.
film / culture essay channels on youtube.
Yhara zayd & Final Girl Digital & Rosa (@nosebleedshawty)
these three women make my favorite film essays. you should def check them out if you like those kind of videos.
orange glider on youtube.
i'm not much into j-pop, except for chibo matto, lamp and satellite lovers, but this guy is getting me more into the genre. he makes videos on j-pop bands and stuff like that.
to download videos off youtube.
sapphic letterboxd lists
sapphic movies that aren’t period dramas and don’t have sad endings
Sapphics in Coming-of-Age Films
i'm sure there exist more comprehensive lists out there, but la la..
a site where you can watch and download rare films :)
[16.11.25]
i let my mom cut my hair today. i ask her to do it every other year when i can't afford to go to the hair dresser. she's okay at it. she manages to cut the back straight very well, but any kind of layering in the front is difficult and turns out good or bad, but i don't mind.
i think cutting hair is lovingly intimite. someone chopping off parts of you; even if it grows back. it's also sweetly motherly, in my opinion. like your mom putting out clothes for you to wear when you're little.
my new wikipedia account
i am now the proud owner of a wikipedia account. so far all i have added was a missing punctuation character, but still. i stumbled upon it - or rather the lack of it - while i was reading the article, and so i decided to take matters into my own hands. mostly, i decided to do it, because i heard that wikipedia is struggling with too few contributors. i don't know if that's really true though, i haven't fact checked it at all.
